Suicidal..!!

Life takes a U-turn, to screw you from behind.
And I witnessed it today.
The Zenith was reached today, I have never been so close to death :)
It was just a second away from me, but I lacked the guts to embrace it.
Stood there facing it, and then turned by back on it.
And now I regret it.
And will regret it for all the days like this.
Don't know why these days have been written for us to live.
They just make me hate life more than yesterday.
I don't find anything else other than keep living this mechanical life.
Which screws me whenever she wishes to.
It was never this worse, and I know it can't get better.
Its like - Life's never that bad, that it can't get worse.
Lol.

Saand aur Main

Ek shaam sheher ke mele mein gaya,
kaam kuch mujhko tha nahi,
poori botal pe gaya.
Us mele mein kahin se
khula Saand aa gaya,
na jaane kahan se use main bha gaya :(

mujhe dekh aise muskuraya
jaise usne ghotala ho pakad liya,
aur meri samajh main ye na aaya,
ki maine aisa kya tha sharab main piya :O

Ab Saand meri orr bhaga;
maine aankhe kholi, aur nashe se jaaga.
Aur soch main pad gaya,
ki ye kya ho raha hai,
pee maine rakhi hai-
chadh Saand ko kyun gayi hai :O

Saand ne mujhko poori tarah se jakad liya,
aur mujhe bistara samajh kar, mere upar chadh liya.
Kuch he der main log aa gaye,
aur ye ek tamasha sa ban gaya :(

Kabhi Saand mere upar,
kabhi main Saand ke neeche,
kabhi main Saand ke neeche,
to kabhi Saand mere upar.

Kuch log kehene lage,
ye mele main kaisa khel aa raha hai?
kuch ne kaha nahi-
ye koi action scene filmaya jaa raha hai.
Ek chora aage aaya aur chillaya-
are action scene nahi,
ye to mele main naya romantic khel hai aaya :D

Kuch der baad rehem kiya usne,
aur mujhe par se hata,
aur mujhe aisa laga mano-
dharti ko maine he tha utha rakha :)

Itne main Saand ka maalik aaya,
aur main us par chillaya-
SAALE SAAND PAALTE HO,
TO USE BANDHATE KYUN NAHI?
KHULA MELE MAIN KYUN CHODATE HO,
LOGO PAR JAANLEVA HAMLE KARWATE HO,
TUM TO AATANKWAADI KE BHI BAAP LAGATE HO. x(

Wo bola-
Are mujhe par kyun chillate ho-
tum khud nakaab kyun nahi lagate ho?
Kyunki ismain Saand ki kya galti hai,
jab tumhari shakal he gaaye (Cow) se milti hai.

-Abhinava Sharma "Deep"

Forever Yours

At times, it feels so good,
When I think of you...
This World looks beautiful,
my heart feels new.

Every thought of yours that leaves my mind,
leaves a smile of a different kind.
Your words are enough to make my day.
You sound sweet in whatever you say...

You will never understand your real worth.
You will never realize that yours is this earth.
That my world is yours, and all in it,
that you are my Angel and
you are my Queen.

You have taken a place not only in my heart,
but even in my mind.
With each and every vein and
every cell you bind.

I feel your presence within my soul,
You have become a part of me as a whole.

Your love, your faith makes me surrender,
your trust, your understanding and
your care so tender,
you just make me lose myself in you.
I don't know how this magic you do.

I feel so secure when, in your arms,
Doesn't look like this world
can do me any harm.

You are like a guiding angel in my life,
keeping me safe from all the strifes.

And for all the Love you give this Gorse.
All I can say is "I AM FOREVER YOURS".

- Abhinava Sharma "Deep"

FINALLY

Move away from me,
Move out of my way
I am walking alone and upon myself I lay.

My life is mine,
and I shall live it the way I want.
I am no one's slave, nor am I anyone's pawn.

Something tells me to remove these chains,
Something tells I have had enough pains,
Something says that I have to regain
the glory of mine under stains which remains.

I have walked this far under the rule.
I have been treated so far as a Mule.
But now I stand alone and strong,
to make these decisions of right or wrong.

From now on I walk alone,
from now on my life is my throne,
from now on I am my King,
I had these feet and now, I have wings.

I will walk ahead, I have desire within.
I will walk ahead, I have fire within.
I will walk ahead because I know I will WIN.

- Abhinava Sharma "Deep"

For The Person Who Means Me The Most ;)

I know a place that we can go to
A place where no one knows you
They wont know who we are
I know a place that we can run to
And do those things we want to
They wont know who we are

Let me take you there
I wanna take you there

I know a place that we forgot
A place where we wont get caught in
They wont know who we are (they wont know, wont know)
I know a place where we can hide out
And turn our hearts inside out
They wont know who we are

Let me take you there
I wanna take you there
Let me take you there
Take you there
Take you there
Ooohhh
Ooohhh
Ooohhh
Ooohhh

I know a place well be together
And stay this young forever
They wont know who we are

Let me take you there
I wanna take you there
Let me take you there
Take you there
Take you there
Ooohhh

We can get away to a better place if you let me take you there
We can go there now cause every second counts
Girl just let me take you there
Take you there